Dear Elysia,
Hi sweet little girl! I cannot wait to meet you :) I think about you all the time and wanted to write you a little letter before your cooking time is up ;) We've got about a month and a half left! I can't believe how quickly the time has seemed to pass! You'll be here so soon and I hope life here on Earth is everything you thought it would be and more :) I hope that you will know how much your family loves you. You are so special and important and you are SO loved!!
I just thought it would be a nice idea to tell you a few things about your time inside of me. At least, from my perspective :) Hopefully for you it has been nothing but pleasant! For me, it's been mostly pleasant with just a tiny bit of discomfort and unpleasantness. Compared to when I was pregnant with your sister, Ayden, this has been pretty quick and relatively painless! :)
We found out we were pregnant with you on June 20, 2014. A week after that, I was sure I had a miscarriage. I still believe that I did but, since I wasn't examined before it happened, we can't be sure. However, we think that I may have been carrying twins and you were the only one to make it.,it was a hard experience for me and I was very sad for the few weeks that I thought I had lost you. I was eager to try again and get you back because I was sure that maybe there had just been something wrong with the body but that I would get the same baby back once I could get pregnant again. I'm not really sure if that's how it all works but, it helped me get through that time and it's a nice idea.
On July 14, I went in to see my doctor. We had just gotten back from Atkin Reunion and I had been nauseous for a couple of weeks and I just felt bad all-around so I thought maybe I should go in to see if I had gotten some kind of infection. Your dad had left that morning for Scout Camp so, Ayden and I were alone for the week. One of the nurses was nice enough to take your sister so that I could be checked in peace. When my doctor pulled up the ultrasound and told me that I was still pregnant with you...I couldn't believe it! Literally though haha I had to ask her quite a few times if she was sure and if you were really okay and doing fine in there. She said you looked perfect and it was true, you've been perfect all along :) It just figures your dad would be gone for the amazing news! After I finally let myself believe that this was real and you weren't going to be taken from me, all I could feel was blessed beyond any expectation. You're our little miracle, Elysia :) We are so happy to have you as a part of our family!
I was only sick for a little while in the beginning and I threw up a hand full of times. That's different than with Ayden, I was throwing up all the time with her it seemed! But, same as with Ayden, all of the nausea went away as I entered the 2nd trimester and that was nice :) You get the hiccups pretty often, just like your sister! I crave dirt and dust all the time with you!! It's a lot more intense than I remember having with Ayden. Like, the other night, your dad and I watched Prince of Persia: the Sands of Time..."sand" is part of the title and they're located in Persia, a desert-y place! Let's just say..I had a rough time getting through that! So much sand!! All I wanted was to eat it haha it's so funny! I've been tempted many times to get myself some dirt and just have at it but, have yet to give in. I eat ice in its place whenever I can, I like the yummy pellet ice! I need to get myself some to get through this last month or so :)
I'm a lot more tired this time around..I think that has a lot to do with the fact that your sister is a wild one and keeps me on my toes! You both are. You are a crazy active baby! You move around almost constantly it seems. Ayden does too, just on the outside so I have to chase her instead of just dealing with the kicks ;) It doesn't help that I don't really take breaks when I get the chance. There's just so much that needs to be done, or that I want to get done! I've decided to let myself relax a little bit more before you get here though, since I figure I won't get many chances after you're here and I have the two of you little rascals to take care of! :)
My ribs hurt with you. Like, I can't lay on my left side hardly at all. I think it partially has to do with the pleurisy I've been dealing with since I had Ayden but, maybe it's just a symptom of pregnancy because my right ribs hurt fairly often as well. Makes it hard to sleep since sleeping on my back makes it hard to breathe! I'm 33 weeks and 4 days as of today and I feel pretty big and can't believe I still have so much growing to do before you're here! You do too. You're 4 pounds (as of last week's appointment) and my doctor says you're just a little thing. She says you'll probably be about 7 pounds full-term. So, I definitely want to at least keep you inside of me until you gain a little weight. Ayden was ahead on her weight so she was fine to come so early but, I think you need a little more cooking time :) I don't feel like you'll be as early as her.
Oh the things I go through for you kids ;) Don't worry, it's been totally worth it, even now! I've never been upset about the discomfort or pain I've gone through for you or your sister. The way I see it, there's no one I'd rather hurt for :) I love you so much Elysia Lucile! Sometimes I feel a little nervous about how close you and Ayden will be and how hard it will be to have two babies but, I never regret choosing to have you! You came when you were supposed to. I believe that, I really do. We're so excited to meet you and teach you about life and watch you learn and grow :)
I hope there's never a doubt in your mind about the love we all have for you! You're coming into a very excited family! Your grandparents and aunts and uncles are thrilled to have another baby to dote on, your cousins are excited to have another playmate, your sister has no idea what's going on haha (though she will be a great sister to you- you'll see what I mean soon enough.) and your parents couldn't be more happy to have another beautiful little girl to spend their lives taking care of and loving :)
We will see you soon, Ellie! Until then, I'll keep thinking about you, dreaming about you, and taking care of you to the best of my abilities! I love you!
Love, Mommy
