Nesting and Prepping

Dear Elysia,

Well, I am 36 weeks pregnant with you now! You've already made it farther than Ayden did, I believe :) She came right around this time. We had an appointment and got to see you yesterday! Well, you were facing away from us so, I couldn't see your adorable little face but, still! I think you're trying to keep it a surprise what you look like ;)

The doctor said you're still breech so, we scheduled the C-Section already for February 6, 2015! That's 3 weeks from today!! :) I can't believe how close it's getting!!! I keep trying to picture what it will be like having 2 little ones and a "little" little one and it's just not an easy thing to imagine! I can hardly even remember when Ayden was tiny like you'll be! You're measuring at almost 6 pounds right now and that is just so small! That would put you at about maybe 7 and a half pounds if you make it to the scheduled date! Still, so tiny!!

I'm "nesting" so badly right now! Every time I get the chance to sit back and relax, I can't seem to help myself from cleaning up a little bit or making some new craft or planning the next craft! I'm already just about done with all of the Valentine's Day crafts (and I did a lot for this one! I think mostly cuz I was so ahead of schedule that I really got into all the cute ideas I kept on seeing)! I'm going to be starting a few St. Patrick's Day and Easter crafts so that we'll still have a few things to put up when those holidays come around. I figure I'll be pretty busy for a few months after having you :) I just washed the newborn clothes so that I can get organizing the dresser for you and Ayden to share! When I went to the store the other day, I found myself getting some big things so that we'd be taken care of for a little while after I have you. I worry about not staying on top of things so I just want to be as ready as possible! Dad's so busy and I don't want to be sending him to the store for a bunch of things that I can get now :) I want to still be able to take care of things when I'm unable to "take care of things" :)

It may sound silly, and I have laughed at myself a few times over it but, I'm even trying to like make sure that I am always showered, with a little makeup on and I'm like clipping my nails and painting them and all these little personal hygiene things so that I'll look decent when I'm in the hospital! With Ayden, I had just taken a bath, had thrown my hair into a untidy braid and I did not have makeup on at all. I mean, come on, I had been stuck on the couch for days in a ton of pain! I was not dressing myself up any of those days. Which was totally fine and honestly, who cares? No one's expecting anyone who just gave birth to look like a model! So yeah, mostly it's so that I'll feel ok. So that I will have as little as possible to worry about and so that as much of my attention as possible can be turned towards you :)

My mom is going to be coming over next Wednesday to help out with whatever I need and I'm contemplating having her help me make a bunch of freezer meals so that daddy and Ayden will still be fed. Well, so that I will be too because, let's be honest, breastfeeding makes you ravenous but, I really wanna still have that part taken care of for my angels! :) I'm also making a baby wrap next Tuesday with my friend Avery so that I can easily carry you around with me and still take care of things around the house! I'm really excited to have that this time around. Your hands are always full as a mom and with one kid, that's not so hard to get around but, with the two of you, I think it'll help a lot to just have you bundled up to me all the time :) I really am getting excited to have that wrap!

Anyways, these are the things your mom is running around trying to take care because she really likes to feel prepared and since there's not much I can really do to prepare myself for having 2 adorable, crazy girls in my life, I'm doing physical things that kind of don't seem relevant but that help me feel a little less up in the air :) The crafting part is just something for me :) It's my thing that I do to unwind and it makes me feel so good about myself and about just life! It's amazing what a little homemade project can do to make you feel like your home is more special or that you can do anything you really want to! The other thing that makes me feel wonderful though is being a mom! I love it! I love spending my whole day with your sweet sister and I love picturing what an amazing thing it will be to have you come and join us so soon!! :) Oh, I'm so excited to meet you, sweet Ellie!!

So, I guess we'll be seeing you in 3 weeks, at most!!!! :D

Love, Mommy